Thursday, February 01, 2007

Back to bed to start over... ***updated

I am having one of those days.... Yup, the crazy kind where I have way too much to do and not enough time with the heaping dose of added crap thrown in to make it even more interesting. I wish I could go back to bed to start over again, but since I have not been sleeping well I fear that would just increase my already over the threshold anxiety level.

Here is the day so far (well just the annoying stuff)....

5:50am - get up after a night of waking every 2 hours and then just falling into deep sleep at 4am.

6:10 - after letting dog and feeding him, attempt to make my coffee. The espresso machine didn't drain the water properly and I spill coffee ground sludge down my leg and on my foot. Wait - it gets better: look for coffee and realize that I don't have enough decaf illy to make my morning latte so I have to use the less expensive (and really nasty decaf espresso husband bought). Perhaps I just should have bought coffee at work.

6:15: Burn toast. That nasty smell lingers...

7:00 Driving husband to the U and realize I forgot to put something in the mail that a person needs for the meeting I am hosting tomorrow. Argh - I will have to fax it or drop it off at my lunch hour.(Do people still fax things?)

7:10 Get to gym for morning workout. Look feverishly through my bag for my iPod and realize I most definitely left it at the gym on Tuesday morning. I remember setting it down by the free weights and thinking: "Don't forget it here" but I can not for the life of me remember picking it up as I hustled off to shower and get to work for my 9 am meeting. I can not believe how stupid I am!!!!!

7:20 Obsessing about lost iPod so badly I cannot work out so I shower and go to work early to research getting a new one. I feel sick to my stomach and am so mad at myself. This is about as stupid as the time I left the digital camera on top of the car and did not realize it until we heard a loud thud on the freeway. I just should have taken $200 out of the cash machine in singles and stood over an overpass and let it all fly off in to the wind - just as wasteful and a bit more satisfying. Even better, I could have spend thousands of dollars on fertility drugs for treatments that didn't work - damn, that is too real to even be funny at this point.

8:00 Get to work and a due task pops up to tell me today is a grant deadline. I programed this in months ago (luckily I almost finished it about 1 month ago) but I entered it incorrectly so the reminders all came due today rather than weekly like I though I had set. How did I forget about this you ask? I HAVE BEEN WAY TO BUSY LATELY!!! I guess I am working late AGAIN.

9:00 Chow down on valentine's candy hearts since I am so depressed about iPod and stressed about another deadline. Hmmm....now I didn't workout and will most likely go over my calorie limit for the day. Did I mention I need to loose 9 lbs in the next 2 months.

9:15 While sitting at my desk with a burning foot I realize I may have picked up athlete's foot from the gym shower. no workout but still the joys of a nasty gym fungus - what a treat. I decide to head over to the pharmacy since I have to head that way to drop something off. Stop in the bathroom and discover it is CD 1. Why can't I get lucky one of these blasted months????


Can it get worse? Wait - don't answer that until you hear that I have this ultra important meeting tomorrow (can I trust our assistant to order breakfast or is it just easier to do it myself?) and then have to drive to WI for a weekend work related conference. I don't even get to go home Friday night and relax. Rather, I have to sit in a hotel room and stare at the TV becasue I have no iPod to bring along to listen to. Whine, whine, cry , cry ; have you had enough of me today?

***updated - it got worse
1:18 here is the scenario: Clueless Co-worker shouts across the hallway for me to come over so another co-work can tell me her "good news". Clueless co-worker then asks me, isn't that good news? Perhaps she was being rhetorical, but that is certaily a loaded question.
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On another note: if I have any lurkers can you let me know. No need to post, an e-mail will do. I am making a blog change this weekend and I will notify the posters but I don't want to leave out any welcome lurkers.

28 comments:

DD said...

Wait! You forgot to tell everyone about the Urban Cujo!

beagle said...

I just bought an iPod (my consolation prize for another failed cycle). I am afraid to take it anywhere, it cost too much for such a tiny gadget!

btw I can't find an e-mail address on your blog??

Anonymous said...

I can't find your email address!

Josie said...

Hey all! e-mail is josiebrinda@yahoo.com

I will fill you in on the Urban Cujo very soon but I have to get back to work. It is absolutely hillarius and (un)fortunatley I was on the phone with DD at the time so she heard me freak out.

Anonymous said...

I hope your day didn't get any worse. I hate days like this.

Let me know if you are moving, I will move with you!

Stephanie said...

What a sucky day! Hope tomorrow is better.

Natalie said...

OMG. Now that is a crappy day. I'm so sorry. :(

Baby Blues said...

CD1 always coincides with a crappy day for me too.

Lut C. said...

Getting up at 5.50? That's enough to ruin any day for me!
The rest wouldn't help either. :-/

Carol said...

gosh, sorry you're having such a rough day. did you call the gym to see if someone turned in your ipod?

Anonymous said...

I lurk, of course.

Hopeful Mother said...

I hope you find your iPod!

BigP's Heather said...

Sorry about your Ipod. Hope your day got better after that.

carrie said...

me, lurker. so sorry about your bad day. sucks especially about the ipod. and the cd1. and the "good news". ugh.

Melzie said...

I come-- I post sometimes, but no always... I am sorry about the bad day- did you ask the gym if someone turned in your iPOD? People are still nice beings- and maybe a nice one found yours?

Anonymous said...

I lurk. Would like to continue lurking. It's barely possible that your day could have continued to get worse. Here's hoping it didn't beat the odds.

Twisted Ovaries said...

*de-lurking*

*back to lurking*

GLouise said...

Oh what a day!!! No one deserves that day! I hope things are looking up.

Take care,

Anonymous said...

I'm one of your lurkers - I have been surfing the blog world for months now, trying to gain hope, insight, just not feel so alone I guess.

I am 40, have been ttc for 30 months with no luck - clomid, injections, IUIs - am now on the waiting list for DE IVF (skipping my old eggs, not passing go, not collecting 200.00)

If you dont mind, I'll check back in on you and your journey now and then :)

Lollipop Goldstein said...

Catching up on blogs and saw this post today (I know, I know, I'm a month late). But wanted to let you know that I lurk from time to time if you've started a different blog.

Mel
thetowncriers@gmail.com

Truly Tested said...

yes, I'm late seeing this too and sorry for your bad day...I start losing things too when life spirals out of control...don't beat yourself up...and tell me where/when you start a new blog please

Stephanie said...

Hey Josie,
It has been a long time since we in blog land have heard from you. Just wanted to let you know that I thought of you today and hope you are well.

Erin said...

I saw your comment on DD's and came to visit. Then I saw that you might be adopting from Ethiopia, which is what we're doing. I hope you'll continue to post sometime!

Anonymous said...

Just ran across your blog doing random searches for "infertility". I'm there myself. I've enjoyed what I've read so far & I'll add you to my reader!
Best Wishes,
Brooke

Anonymous said...

Hi! I am a new clicker for Stirrup Queens and Palace Jesters. Mel has asked me to keep tabs on the blogs in your category and update her with news. Will you please let me know about your new site? I see this one hasn't been updated in a while... Thanks!

Unknown said...

I'm so sorry. I've had so many CD1's and each one is crappy. I hope tomorrow is better.

Frustrated said...

Lurker here :) Its easier to leave a comment than deal with my outlook express that I have yet to set up. Sorry about the crappy day. I have many of those these days. My favorite is spilling not 1 but 2 tea lights candle wax alll over my shirt and burnt my right boob. And It was only the beginning of the day. Don't even ask how that happened! Hoping for a day so good you have a cheesy smile plastered on your face all day!

KimboSue said...

delurking...

and lurking again...