Tuesday, November 21, 2006

I finally got off my arse...

Now that one week has passed since the official notice of the BFN I am done with my pity party. Thanks to all of you who attended - I must say I know how to throw a party and the turn out was fab. Next time I will serve more crabcakes.

Anyway, now that I no longer have an excuse (depressed, sore ovaries, 2ww, etc) , I decided to actually do something about those extra 10 pounds I am carrying around in my rear. I would not say that I am fat, rather a white girl with back. Since I started IF treatments a few years ago, the stress, waiting, meds and physical discomfort caused me to bulk up a bit. Last January I got on the scale and the number read a whopping 162 - YIKES! I knew I was stressed with starting IVF, I hated my job, I still was not over the miscarriage, and I had not accepted my lot in life as an infertile. Now that I am still stressed with IVF, I have a new job, have gotten over the miscarriage a bit , and have come to acknowledge my life as an infertile I proudly announce that I currently weigh in at 142. It is crazy to think that I was carrying around an extra 20 lbs that I could live without. I wish I could ditch infertility as "easily" as I lost that weight, but rather I think it will hang around with me like those last 10 lbs.

Why am I blogging about this? I know you don't care how much I weigh and some would say that it is tacky to talk about it, but if I have to wait a while to do another cycle I need a new obsession. Also, DH and I booked tickets to Key West for a week this spring and I want to be one crazy hot infertile in a bikini on the beach.

5 comments:

DD said...

For me I wouldn't care how much weight I lost, I could never wear a bikini w/any confidence.

However, I know that if I had enough Margaritas in the Key West sun I might be a little more inclined to bare something or other.

Hopeful Mother said...

I'm proud of you - taking life by the horns after a #$@* BFN.

I can relate to the weight stuff - I had the weight before IVF, but fortunately haven't gained any from the process. I keep telling myself not to worry about those 20 lbs now because "when" I get pregnant I won't care... but I still really hate those 20 lbs.!

My Reality said...

Congrats on the weight loss - it is something to be proud of, so you should post your accomplishments!

I do hope your dog is doing better, a sick puppy isn't any fun.

not so fertile girl said...

way to go smokin hot bikini girl! I will envy you as you lounge on the beach sipping a cocktail. Oh how I wish I could be there too!

Babyblue said...

Hey I'll be glad to be your diet blog buddy! Wow that's a big accomplishment to loose 20 lbs! How'd you do it? I've tried South Beach Diet and it really works. It's just that I'm such a carbo addict. I get cranky and nauseated when I take away carbs. But I'll try it again after the holidays. I'm currently 130 lbs and should ideally be around 115 lbs. I know weight lost, exercise and watching my diet's glycemic index is crucial for my PCOS, so I better start working at it. I've always wanted flat abs, I think this 2007 be the year. You're right, I'd like to be one crazy hot infertile too!